30.5.06

Got this from my mail box...just wanna share..

You're in love with a human being and not with superman!!!

A few years back...I was so excited to meet that special someone who
will make my life complete. I thought I had it all
na kasi except for that someone who will make me
forget about my fears and heartaches.

Many times...I thought nakilala ko na siya...
but many times I realized that hindi pala siya.
I don't know kung hindi talaga siya para sa akin or ako
lang yung may problema...dahil i just can't get
contented with what I have.
Masaya lang kasi sa una...then after that, sunod sunod na ang away,
kung wala namang away, wala namang thrill.
And I end up getting tired of hoping that tomorrow will make up
for today...Finally, I decided that maybe
its better to try my luck elsewhere, maybe,
someone else's love will make me feel complete.
Every woman wants a man who will make ! her feel
special...and treat her like she's everything in his life...
He's always busy...he doesn't
have time for me. He promised to take me out for dinner
and movie and then biglang tatawag "B, sorry I can't take you out
today,my boss asked me to work tonight, may hinahabol kasing deadline.
Nakakahiya naman pag hindi ko pagbibigyan.

Hayaan mo I'll make it up to you next time." And it happens all the
time. I often end up spending the day crying in my room.
"Bakit gan'un, he doesn't care about me...
I was looking forward to see him today. Hindi ba niya ako
namimiss?" Kaya heto ako...I've made up my mind na..
...I'll give him what he wants...he probably won't miss me anyway.
I'm always last sa lahat ng priorities niya.
Im not important to him at all. If he can't treat me
right, somebody else will!

Mahimbing ang tulog niya...when he came home. D man lng niya ako
napansin.He gave me a kiss sa cheek and ginulo ang buhok ko...after ! that
dumeretso nasa kuarto at natulog. I won't wake him up anymore..
..susulat na lng ako...at parang isang panaginip...pagising niya wala na ako.

Dear Jake,

While you're reading this letter, wala na ako...you probably won't see
me again. I won't tell you the details anymore coz alam mo na yun. but i
guess you deserve to know why...Lately, I realized that this is not the kind
of life that I want for myself..you know that I've been lonely most of my
life and I want to share my life with someone who won't take me for
granted, who will make me happy every second of my life. Forgive me but
I guess, hanggang dito na lng tayo. I just want you to know that I love
you and I want you to be happy too.

Maan

With tears in my eyes, I left the letter beside him para makita niya
paggising niya. And then I looked at him. Ang guapo guapo niya...napangiti
ako...naaalala ko nung una ko siyang makilala. I met this guy sa
schoolnung college. Ang daming nagkakagusto sa kanya but I don't know what he saw
in me at ako ang niligawan niya kahit inaaway ko siya. I was scared of
him before, para kasing playboy ang mukha...I was broken hearted at
that time and getting hurt again was the last thing I wanted. But then he
was persistent and he was really nice to me. At first, our relationship was
extraordinary. wala akong masabi.

Nobody has ever treated me like that...kaya lang as time went by...we
both got busy and despite the fact that we both lived under one roof, we
seldom spent time with each other. He buys me anything I want but I dont
really need anything...I just need him. But i guess, he changed a lot since
the first time we were together, siguro he fell out of love and he just
can't tell me...Ba't kasi kailangan pang magbago ang lahat....kaya heto na
naman ako, muling mag iisa.I didn't realize, I was staring at him for 3
hours.

Gumalaw siya and something fell off his hand---ballpen?! and then I saw
a piece of paper sa tabi niya.. I was curious kaya binasa ko and it goes
like this...

Dear Maan,

For all the times that I have disappointed you, I'm really sorry. I
know I've been out of your sight often and that I always make you feel bad.
Im really sorry. I want you to know that even though wala ako sa tabi
mo...I'm always thinking about you. You are the reason why I work hard. I want
to give you everything in life because you deserve everything and I want
you to be happy. Kaya forgive me kung hindi tayo natuloy last week. I had to
work double time para matuloy tayo ngayon. I know that you've always wanted
to go south sa beach. I can't afford a house by the beach right now but I
hope that I've made you happy today. I love you baby. I love you more than
you'll ever know. Happy Valentines Day!

With lots of love,
Jake

What if hindi ko nakita ang ! letter na to? I could have committed the
greatest mistake of my life, letting go of someone who loves me the way
this man does. I will never forgive myself for thinking that he was unfair,
that he doesn't care, that he doesn't love me. I couldn't help myself but
cry.
All the while, I was the one being unfair and selfish and I feel so
stupid for failing to see what this man is doing for me. Valentines na pala
next week. I havent got anything for him yet...ahh alam ko na, from now
on,hindi na ako mangungulit. I can wake up tomorrow and pretend that nothing
happened tonight. I placed his letter back under his pillow and I tore mine
into pieces. Tapos, niyakap ko siya ng mahigpit. I love you, b. I
whispered. He wrapped his arms around me at ginulo ang buhok ko (gulat ako) I love
you more he told me. And he laughed. He was watching me all the time?! O,
tapos naba ang drama mo? Kanina pa kita hinihintay. And he turned off the
lights.


---the realization---she is married to jake! not to clark( the superman);)
---but honestly i am so touched with this...really it moved me & my bespren too.

8 comments:

Racky aka Bakya Ni Neneng said...

ang ganda :)

Ann said...

Haba...but it's worth reading.

Minsan kasi talaga or madalas nagiging selfish tayo, yung para sa atin lang ang nakikita natin.

In a relationship, communication is very important.

Ka Uro said...

ev, ganda. thanks for sharing.

kneeko said...

sinipon ako sa story ah... :(

ang gwapo.... puro na kasi ganda sabi nila eh :)

ghee said...

di ko napansin yung nakasulat sa taas..
kala ko tuloy,love story mo :)

goshhh,i always love happy ending...
eto na breakfast ko.

napatagal ako sa pagbasa ah!whew!pero,ok lang..enjoy ako

tutubing_karayom said...

Tama si AMANG KNEEKO, ang gwafo... beheh!!! wala nman tlagang perfect na tao kaya walang perfect relation dba? compromising lang tlga kailangan!!!

ev said...

rackyneng,
singganda ng buntot mo ang story.;)

ann,

tama ka..communication is very important to all forms of relationship..senxa na napagod yata kita sa haba ng story...hehe..worth reading..oo nga!

Ka Uro,
thanks for reading...alam ko kasi maraming makakarelate esp. the busy people.

Kneeko,
effective ba sayo?...joker ka rin...oo nga naman..gwapo kaayo ang story ni Maan..bisaya to!dito sa amin sa davao...pag humahanga ka ganito lagi maririnig mo "gwapo lagi"..patungkol man sa bagay o tao...kaya binggo ka parin!


Ghee,
hehehe...wish ko lang story ko toh!hehe..ang sarap kaya main-luv!
salamat at nag-enjoy ka sa kwento..lahat naman siguro tayo gusto ng happy ending...ako rin.


TK,
naku welcome back!namiss ko pangungulit mo dito sa munti kong bahay...ur right TK!di ka left!hehehe...we have to compromise for each other's little failure and shortcomings...we're only human kaya may loopholes talaga ang bawat relasyon...a careful decision should always be put into consideration...seryos ko daw?;0)

jairam said...

you dont need another person to complete you, but you need someone to compliment you :)