13.7.07

When night falls...

I coudn't help but grew sentimental after my conversation with sheng the other night before we parted ways on our way home. I felt like I have seen that scene for so many times in my life back then. Sheng is leaving for good back to her hometown the same way my very good friend Gladys and my college bestfriend lovely left Davao to be with their family. These three are truly my best buddies in the road I've travelled. I couldn't measure my gratitude to the Giver of life for giving me such opportunity to have met true friends in them.

Just when letting go good friends should become the usual scenario in my life, it seems to me that I must be the goddess of my own castle...must be ever willing to free the birds out of their cage. Hmm..what am I talking here? For the first time, as I sat quietly on a passenger's seat on my way home, I felt alone. Out of the blue, I was starting to feel nostalgic yearning for some important events in the past with special people who are now no longer within my grasp. Ahh!!..change!...how could you do this to me! Why is the pang of goodbye just couldnt go softly without leaving any trace of sadness but an open-mind acceptance for the inevitable! Sitting here infront of the pc monitor at this unholy hour must be one of my longest reflections...in the absence of even the slightest noise in solitude though...because I am thinking of these good fellows who just have to walk away chasing after their very own rainbow...Lord, I miss them!

Now as night falls, I will have wonderful memories with them neatly tucked in my heart...forever.Tomorrow will be a brand new day...it's I,me and myself again unfolding another chapter of life..still welcoming new friends and will soon be strong enough to let them go.... as night falls.

10 comments:

Mari said...

It does hurt when one goes away and leaves family and friends. When I came here, to the U.S., I left them all. I was already feeling sad waving good-bye to all, especially my mother. (Now thinking about it, my eyes are welling with tears.) I was here 3 days and I wanted to go back home already. I thought that if I only have enough money to go back I would have. So sad. There was a time, a few weeks after getting here I thought of calling my friend, then it suddenly dawned on me that my friend was back there.

Now I have learned to cope with it. I think of the times I had with my family and friends, and I just sigh and say, "Those were the days."

krystyna said...

Hi Ev!
I understand your feeling. Say "good bye" is a very hard word. We love our friends and we have to come to terms with their leaving some day. Life go forward and tomorrow will be a new day!
Take good care and all the best to you!

Anonymous said...

its not goodbye bes...
and even if i die, i will never say goodbye to you.
distance lang naman ang problema bes... mababaw mang sabihin no, pero my heart will always be online for you!!!
Cheer up....
i love you
and your other friends love you as well.
ilabi na si A. harharhar

Raghu Ram Prasad said...

Hi ev...what a wonderful thinking about true friendship...I may become a good friend of you .....keep in touch

ev said...

Mari,
Well i guess change is really a part of everybody's journey...if there's no change then probably there will also no growing up and development in the metamorphosis of life.


Krys,
Yah, life goes on and tomorrows are waiting to be unfold..more adventure..more to enjoy about life and relationships. Thanks a lot for all the well wishes.I wish you the same Krys!

Bes,
hmmm...ikaw na jud na!haha!i know..i know that you will never leave..by heart i know i can feel just how lucky i am to have you guys!i love you too bespren!you take care and i miss you so!


raghu,
thanks for dropping here..sure thing we can be friends...Godbless!

tutubing_karayom said...

Naku nagdrama ang lola ko! waaaa... ganun tlga. isipin mo nlang ito, mas mahirap.. kapag asawa mo na ang lalayo.. nyhahha pinapatawa lang kita...

Di nman sila nawala,,, gusto lang ni Lord na mamiss mo sila to the highest level..

razzy said...

senti, hehehehehe...

yeah it's sad.. pero distance lang yan.. you'll true friends, kahit malayo, feel mo pa rin un friendship..nasa puso pa rin. :)

when my close friends left the country, hindi naman ako nalungkot, after 2weeks ko pa lang narealize na umalis sila.. hehehe.. but still, ganon pa rin kami..we chat kapag may time, pero walang plano. basta alam ko lang pagnakita ulit kami, same pa rin un pakiramdam, comfortable and at home pa rin sa isa't isa..

razzy said...

ano daw??? you'll true friends??? you'll be good friends... (heheheh)

ev said...

tiks,
yun ang mas nakakalungkot..kapag si lovedoods mo na talaga ang malayo sayo...kaya naman i really understand your feeling that you really cant wait na to be back here sa pinas with your hubby..pero strong ka naman eh..kaya in time, things will be in better perspective.


razz,
hehe!senti moment nga..naninibago lang kasi parang kailan lang kami nagkakilala nitong mga 'to and we really had fun together..sa lahat ng kalokohan at iyakan,mga kakornehan,kadramahan...sabay-sabay kami nito kaya nakakamiss talaga...pero in time, we'll be reunited of course..its only distance ika nga..salamat sa new technology kasi pwede naman natin silang chatmate to enhance the frenship..dibah!;0)

theladybehind said...

Evz,

Ganyan talga yan. Noong panahon ng nag bid goodbye si Glad dito sa house di ko nalang ipinapakita na nalulungkot talaga mi, bagkus, i'm happy with her decision atlast natupad narin. So tayong dalawa nalang naiwan, sino kaya mauna sa atin makahanap ng future or magka lovelife? hehehehe