1.9.06

Dear Alex,

Kumusta ka na? It's been quite long years na wala ka. Namiss kita. You came into my dream the other night. Tumaba ka...yet you still wear the same smile...with your cute dimples. You haven't changed. You're still as good-looking as ever. I was a bit surprised when i saw you in my dream, it happened to me very seldom. Little did i realize that your birthday is approaching. Nagpapaalala ka pala. Of course you are always in my heart!

It's your birthday today. I know you have a grand celebration there...more than we know. Medyo tanda ka na rin pala but i'm sure you still possess that same handsome look that every girls would have giggled. Have i told you before that "i love you"? Oh no, we're not that vocal..we're not that type of people. Oh, kumusta na buhay diyan? I know you're happy. Namimiss na kita. Ilan birthdays na rin ang lumipas. I wonder what have you been doing lately. I miss the way you would pinch my nose. Some say, i look like you. Naks!flattered naman ako..ang gwapo mo kaya...does it mean that i'm also pretty?hahaha! No, we just have the same nose shape and eyes. Hindi naman kaya ako mukhang lalaki ano! Hayyy, nakakainis! Why do i miss you just now..."only when i can no longer hold you".

Sometimes when i would look at the stars at night...how i wish that you're one of them. So that somehow i could feel signs of you. You know each time i would hug and kiss your three lovely kids...i sometimes feel a sense of hope...hoping you're here..oh how they copy your countenance! Their eyes, nose, eyebrows, lips, dimples, colors and mannerisms are just exactly like yours. Kaya lalong nakakamiss ang original. I love the kids so much! They're half my life. Siguro babatokan mo ako with all that i'm saying here now...kasi you know that i won't get to say these things naman talaga if you're here. I know i've been unfair. Ok..and i'm guilty of that.

Oh,pa'no...i do not have anything to offer you in your birthday talaga...i don't have any material things that you'd be proud to know i own...except for the things abstract like my undying love to the people you love and left behind. And of course with my prayer. I miss you so much... I still get to cry each time i remember you. You never even gave me the idea that the last time i set my eyes on you would be final. Please be the kids' angel.

Happy Birthday Bro! Give my regards to my God there in heaven.

Your little sister,
Evelyn

7 comments:

razzy said...

parang unti unti tumutulo ang luha ko sa mata..

kitang kita sa letter mo na love na love mo utol mo...

keep on praying for him... :)

Ann said...

May namatay ka palang kapatid, just pray for him. Malay mo andun nga sya, isa sa mga stars di ba? Watching over you.

ghee said...

awww..akala ko love story na naman...

kaya pala your gift is an undying love to the people he loves and he left...

yeah,im sure hes an angel and father of all kids in heaven..

happy bday to your bro...

tutubing_karayom said...

Happy birthday to ur bro and im sure he is very proud of you as his sister... and im pretty sure he'w always watching over you kaya be good ha baka isumbong kanun ke God.. haha! Joke!! He will be your guardian angel, believe me...

ev said...

razz,
masakit lang talaga mawalan ng mahal sa buhay..kaya somehow i regret na naihayag ko lang feeling ko only when its too late at di na nya maririnig...but we have moved on na rin.

ann,
maybe nga he is just one of the stars guiding us from above...i hope..i'm sure he's happy wherever he is now.

ghee,
salamat...touching naman syado pagdamay nyo..by now he's already an angel.

parang sa dating minamahal sa simula ng entry ano?hehe

tk,
thnx too...constancia na lang i-name ko sayo kasi constant follower ka ng mga entry ko!hehehe

lab u ol guys!

tutubing_karayom said...

Constancia? aba maganda maganda ano kaya ang magandang nickname nun? hmmm... con-con... heheh

ravishingkat said...

hayyy.. that's so sweet. parehas tayo, nasa heaven na rin ang honey ko... friends na siguro sila ng bro mo. hehe.. sakit talaga mawalan ng loved one anu? pero naging stronger naman tayo in the end, and God always has a reason. and rest assured they are our angels..so we're lucky. tsaka nauna lang sila sa atin, we will surely see them someday. =)