A letter and a friend....

I was rummaging my old files when I saw this draft. It's a letter for my best friend back in college that I wrote five years ago exactly the same date today. It feels odd somehow coz even when we were not communicating that often after she got married, I still feel the sincerity of her friendship for me, the same way I want our pact to remain stronger even when we dont see each other as often as we wanted to. She despised marriage before, only because one man in her past left her so broken hearted. Since then she stopped believing in the sacrament of matrimony. But not until she found the man who's ready to fight for her and love her for the rest of her life. Now, my best friend is already six years so happily married. And I am the happiest for her too. This is how my draft goes:

My dearest friend,

When I would sit down and think about how life would be like not just a daughter, a sister and a friend but a wife and a mother, I remember those times when we would argue about being tied in a married life. You even felt awkward talikng bout it. And now, here I am, wanting to hear your story. When all's about new episodes. And you telling me with teary eyes how much these new people( your son and husband) in your life keep you going.

I miss you friend..so much! I know that you have long moved on in your life without missing me in your system. Yet, I still want you to know that knowing you the first time had changed my whole life. Y'know I still would love to believe that our friendship hasn't changed. But then life is forever moving on and letting go. It's not because we dont have a choice..but simply because we choose to. Pls. believe me when I say that you're still a part of me and I dont care if i sound begging. You know how much I still want to be a part of your life. You're not closing your door in fact. I just choose not to knock.

I did not trade you my friend.I've been obscure I know but that doesnt mean I think of you no more. Maybe I'm not just ready to tell you how I am. But this time I wanna make sure that you'll be proud to know that I choose to be happy. Even when I am not this succesful at least I am happy, right? And it's all becuase even from the start, you taught me to. Thank you so much. Godspeed!

Happy Birthday bes! You take care...


****During those times, she's always been the tough one bet. us while I was the weakling...hehehe! I only laugh when I think of those moments...because I cant imagine how much i've grown now to be a very funny and crazy individual...such transition!bwehehehe! Until now we only communicate (via phone and internet) when we get the chance. And I pray that our friendship will stay the same even when we're miles away. I realize that it's not actually the distance...but it's how we keep important people in our heart.


Tikey said...

That was very touching letter, kung me nag bigay sakin nyan pakakasalan ko khit ma bigamy pa ako nyhaha

kidding aside... lam mo ang frenship lagi lang anjan, khit ilang taon payan hindi nagbabago sa pag lipas ng panahon.. im great i met a fren like u, marunong ka kasinng mag treasure.. kaya mag te treasure hunting na ako.. heheh

gusto mo ung kanta ni Te gee? sige email ko sayo heheh.. nasa ofis ko e!

Betty Boop said...

Hindi ko man masabi ang lahat ng nararamdaman ko sa space na ito, sana kahit na papano ay maipadama ko sa iyo gaano ako nagpapasalamat ke Lord na biniyayaan ako ng isang kaibigang katulad mo.

Hindi ka naman weak noon Bes, masyado lang yata akong over protective sayo.....alam mo na feeling hero... grrr...

Sana mabasa ni Janet to ano? Tiyak na matutuwa yun sa napakagandang transformation mo ngayon.

Advance Happy Birthday Bes....
Mabuhay Ka!!!
Mahal ka namin ng buong pamilya ko.

(Yeng Constantino)

Kung ito man ang huling awiting aawitin
Nais kong malaman mong ika’y bahagi na ng buhay ko
At kung may huling sasabihin
Nais kong sambitin nilagyan mo ng kulay ang mundo
Kasama kitang lumuha
Dahil sa yo’y ako’y may pag-asa
Ang awiting ito’y para sa yo
At kung maubos ang tinig di magsisisi
Dahil iyong narinig mula sa labi ko
Salamat, Salamat

Sana iyong marinig tibok ng damdamin
Ikaw ay mahalaga sa akin, ang awitin ko’y iyong dinggin
At kung marinig ang panalngin
Lagi kang naroroon, humihiling ng pagkakataon
Masabi ko sa yo ng harapan
Kung gaano kita kailangan

Ang awiting ito’y para sa yo
At kung amubos ang tinig di magsisisi
Dahil iyong narinig mula sa labi ko
Salamat, Salamat

Ito na ang pagkakataon
Walang masasayang na panahon
Mananatili ka sa puso ko kalian man
Para sa yo ako’y lalaban
Ako’y lalaban

Ang awiting ito’y para sa yo
At kung maubos ang tinig di magsisisi
Dahil iyong narinig mula sa labi ko
Salamat, Salamat

Ang awiting ito’y para sa yo
At kung maubos ang tinig di magsisisi
Dahil iyong narinig mula sa labi ko
Salamat, Salamat

jeniffer said...

wow! I hope ur friendship will last forever.. :) sabi nga nila napakahalaga ng pagkakaibigan.. :)

ev said...

Friendship,love, hope and kindness....all unseen but they're meant to be there to remind us that living in this world is such a wonderful thing. It's a gift without a price tag...it's not found in all the available store around but its just there..there in a human's heart...in your heart.

razzy said...

wow, touching... hmmm.. sana lang.. hehehehehe

Hangga't kaya mong maghold on sa friendship, hold on lang.. pede rin naman, magpahinga pag napapagod.. if the friendship is true, kahit saan kayo makarating, it would always be there, even if you lost every definition of friendship... hahahahahahaha...

It's nice to have a bestfriend..

ghee said...

oopppsss,i am late..be back later,Ev..i shall return,hehe,rush lang kasi eh

lav yah!

Jennifer said...

It's great to read about your friendship. I wish both of you good luck! This reminds me of my best friend from school who is now staying miles apart. Wish I could write a letter to her like you!

ev said...

sure you can write your friend jen...its not yet too late..grab while you still have the chance...bestfriends will always be best friends...kaya nga sya tinatawag na best di ba? and so dont make distance build walls bet. you and your best friend instead make bridge to make up for the lost time.

thanks for your wishes! God bless...

i wish you luck too...and take care of your study...and nake you mom proud of you.

Betty Boop said...

Bruhang Besfren,
That letter? Hmmmm... it's still in my lumang baul... naitago ko pala ang mga letters mo noon?
Pero mas magaling kang sumulat noon, ah? Bakit kaya... dahil kay Mr. T__o__. hehehehe
Wala lang.... 'kaasar!!!