the purpose driven life

I'm thinking if there's a need to put this sentiment into record. My mind just seems to be a blank sheet. I cannot think of words in this contemplation..but then, let me just try. Maybe the heart works if  not the mind.

Sometimes I wonder, what is it about living that we so hold on to. But I believe, life is a gift from our Creator. And there is so much about life that I so still want to cherish with. My heart sinks for the youngs and even the olds who would resort to suicidal as an escape from a life they thought was meaningless. If only they were properly guided, or if only there were happy souls smiling at them at their lowest point. But as for my lowest point, I prayed hard, prayed like I never did before, for a life that is full of meaning... for me. God is my perfect escape.

Three months...I don't know how I get the strength to go on. I went to work as if my spirit was crushing because I felt so weak, but there is only one thing for sure, FAITH. For the first time in my life, I was struggling with my health condition for three long months. I pray hard everyday. Only then I realized, that in all those past years of my life, my faith was as little then as a mustard seed. However then and ironically, this is the very moment in my life where my relationship with my God grows deeper each day. I admit I prayed for my life. I wish I can go back to my old self. Spiritual advisers say, do not pray because you ask for something in return, just pray and be thankful for His unfailing love and the gift of life each day. Admittedly, I am guilty for I ask for a return. This weak creature asked for her life. And I am thankful each day because God keeps me going. He understands. His mercy is overflowing. I know there is purpose for every situation, I continue to pray that this purpose is for His greater glory..be my guide each day. Thank you Po!